Genevieve's Place

I've consumed more coffee in the last 24 hours than I have since Christmas. Not getting much sleep and not getting *cough**sniffle* better easily. But, that's a whole novel...

So, life's pretty fragile hey? The first death of our graduating class. 10 deaths in 24 hours. Very unreal. I'm just...speechlessly thankful that I didn't try driving home last night. Yikes.

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My compy's better! Betcha never even noticed I was desperately gone! Anyway, it's midterms now, and I should be studying/freaking out a little more than I am right now. Oh well, it'll all work out in the end. Won't it?

Tomorrow's Thursday!!!

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...always and forever. Seriously. Why does this kinda stuff happen to me? This morning when I woke up, it was eerily quiet. My computer was off. Which isn't...too weird. But the fact that it wouldn't turn on...that...that's kinda bothersome. So, I've got a bit of a problem anyway. And, I'm trying to to stress out about it too much. The only thing nagging my mind is the paper that I've got due on Monday, that I can't get to.

Well, I'm going to try to get some nappy time in before my silly psych experiment a bit later...

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I'm back. I guess. Why is it so cold? I wore flipflops into a convenience store in Sioux Falls, and it was snowing, and my toes got very cold. Then again, I wore sandals to church this morning. I don't want to give it up. :(...I'm supposing you'll all want to know what went on, and you'll all get the rundown eventually. But it's nice to tell people that I had an awesome time and a bit of what we did and leave it at that, but most people want to know more. Blah. It'll be easier once I get my pictures developed though. I'm just glad to be home I think. I don't want to be here, but I'm glad I'm back. Tomorrow I've got a midterm that I haven't started studying for, but it'll be okay, and I still have to write the paper I got an extension for. I have no food in this place so I also need to go grocery shopping. I can no longer even think about beans (frijoles!) or corn tortillas, they make me want to puke. But no offense to any of you that like that. It was very frustrating to not know any Spanish.

Have I changed? Yes, I have, but not in the ways you think.

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This is basically the email I just sent out to everyone, and so I don't have to write a whole other thing....

I'd like to thank you guys for keeping me and the rest of my group in your prayers. You've got no idea what those words alone to me have meant this week.

As you all obviously know, my team and I will be heading to Mexico this Saturday, and I just wanted to let you guys know kinda what would be going on while I'm there. Well, we'll be arriving in Brownsville, Texas at about noon on Sunday. We'll be checking into a hotel there, and crossing the border to Matamoros for the Sunday evening service. We'll return to Texas for the night. On Monday, we'll cross the border again and travel straight to the village where we'll be staying during the week. Sorry, I can't remember the name, but I'll have it when I get back. All I know is that it's a fishing village on the east coast of Mexico, around the area of Las Palmos. Monday will be used for settling in and getting ready. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursdsay, we'll be ministering to the people there, including children's and women's ministries, and possibly construction work (who knows). Friday we're heading back to the city of Matamoros, and we'll most likely be visiting the hospital there, (and so will all of my stuffed animals :) There also might be time for visiting a market while there, although only time allowing. For the night we'll be heading back into Brownsville, where we'll be staying in another motel. (woo! showers!) And then on Saturday morning, we'll be leaving Brownsville at about 6 AM, and arriving on Sunday at about 3-4 PM. So that's just a short overview of what we could possibly be doing.

So I just wanted to let you all know that each of you are specifically in my prayers as well. But if you could pray specifically for the health of the team, a lot of us have been struggling with various sicknesses including mono. And for me, I just got my hep A/B shot, so it's too soon to be effective. Pray as God leads you to...we appreciate each one :)

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So tonight, after the last Mexico meeting...woo!...me and Eva go out for coffee, because it was revealed in the meeting that we had more in common than we initially thought. Huh, you just never know what's going on in someone's life...including mine. So, anyway, we were at Tim Horton's on Pembina (yeah, usually the only one I ever go to) so this was at about 12 or so when some older guys start playing their guitars and it was really nice. A little funny too. Anyway, when we were leaving we thanked them for their music, and we got into conversations about ourselves, telling them we were about to go to Mexico, etc. It seemed like one of the guys was kinda prophesying over us after we told him what we did, what we will do in the future...it was really interesting. Then as we were talking to them, Tom, the night baker guy, was like...do you guys want any of this stuff? I'm about to throw it out. So Eva gets a huge bag of muffins...it was super awesome. Talk about a weird evening. I go to the meeting dragging my feet, hoping that it would last somewhat less than 3 hours, but I come out 7 hours later feeling much better. Especially about what I need to do before I leave. It won't be pleasant, but things need to be said to people...

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Kendra seems to think my room is messy. Not saying that it's not. Right now it's messier than it's been in a couple of weeks. Mostly because when I 'cleaned' up this weekend, everything got shoved in the closet and under the bed...haha. Now I can't find anything. But I don't know how she got that out of my last entry. Anyway...

Today I learned about walk-in clinics. See? I'm learning and becoming more independent. If my mom were here, I would've made her do everything. I learn the hard way this way though. Like you can make appointments. Yikes. 3 hours of waiting for a 30 second prescription, and then more waiting to get the prescription 'administered.' And all the while knowing it made not a whit of difference to my health in Mexico if I got it done or not. Great, huh? But eventually. Thursday, I'm taking Rae to Montana's for her birthday!!! Anyone's free to join us. for sure.

So far I've spent this week trying to get myself ready for what I'll be doing...I don't want to go and go and go and go, and then all of a sudden I have this huge shock that, wow I'm in Mexico now. I've still got a ton of stuff to do yet.

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Today's just been super awesome. I don't even know how I have the right to say that really. But I've never been told more times that people will pray for me than today. It's just so uplifting because I know people are petitioning God for my sake, and they're thinking about me :) And everyone who doesn't know...don't worry about me being sad...really, I'm just pathetically emotional about something I'll explain to you later. Sheesh, boys. But anyway...I feel like I'm ready to leave, and just experience new things for awhile, get back and be a changed person. Change Change Change. Today in management class, we took some little 'personality quizzes' and they felt like cosmo quizzes. Yikes. Anyway, it told me things I think I knew...like I'm an extreme procrastinator. And our prof cautioned us to work on things that might not be good characteristics for managers, etc. But I know I need to change in so many areas of my life, and it's my prayer that I do...change can be a curse though. If you look through my archives here on this blog, you can see me complaining so many times about how I never saw any change, but these past few months, these past two weeks...I've seen more change than I want to in a long time.

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I think I need a puppy. Holly asked me whose shoulder I've been crying on through all this...answer...no one's, really. I think a puppy's all I need.

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You know that question...how many licks does it take to get to the centre of a tootsie pop? I'm beginning to wonder how many beatings my heart can take before it doesn't feel anymore. Fun, huh?

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This week is the week of the pint of ice cream. It just makes you feel better. Especially because it has chocolate chip cookie dough. Lots of ups and downs and I don't quite know what to do with them. Rae has been MIA since last night, and the only way I know she's been home in between is the candies on my desk and the laundry in the machine :P....how would I live without you Rae? I need someone to talk to. Argh. Have you ever been so worried about something, and you fret and frown, and then realize you should pray, and the moment your eyes close, your prayer is answered? Trust me, it's awesome.

And I...just finished the ice cream. :(

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You start using word count after your first sentance in an essay. But I'm doing okay so far though, it's coming along, and hopefully by the end of today I'll be done. Wouldn't that be crazy? Starting and finishing a paper in a day? I hope it turns out okay though. I'm shooting for a B in the class, which would be amazing. Oh! I just want to have this paper done! I have to figure out also some sort of treasure hunt for an area I haven't seen yet for the trip. Kinda scared about that.

I saw the purple city last night. It was beautiful.

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Has your week ever just turned around from what you thought it would be in almost an instant? I know I'm not forming completely coherent sentances right now, but it's okay :) One second you feel absolutely devastated, abandoned, wondering why God won't give you the one thing your heart aches for, and the next you wonder why you could've ever had those thoughts. I hope I never forget that. I've failed this week, failed badly. I've been uplifted though, pretty high.

And I've obviously changed this around a bit around here. I think I needed change, it's what I've been getting in life. Sorry if you think it's ugly :( I was also a little weary of haloscan although when I change again, it'll be back.

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I wonder if I'll ever be upset enough to eat that whole pint of ice cream. As it is, I probably ate less that the suggested serving size. Earlier this evening though...I probably could've handled two. We had a Mexico meeting today and I think it went well. (probably the reason I didn't feel like eating all the ice cream) I'm listening to a CD they gave us of a bunch of spanish songs and I guess we'll be singing some of them. Spanish is pretty hard to learn, not that I've tried much of it yet. I'm so scared to go, yet I'm so excited for the things that will be accomplished through me. Plus I have this strange feeling that everything in my life that I'm feeling crappy about will somehow work itself out when I get back. Part of that has to do with getting my homework done before I leave though.

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Today, driving home, I listened to the song Don't by Jewel, and every single word, rang true. Funny how so much in so little time can have such a huge influence on your life. Tomorrow there's a Mexico meeting, Sunday another one, and we're basically gone. In that time, I need to write a pretty major paper, an assignment, and two tests. Bring it on.

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I have come out of self imposed bloggery exile to declare there is a new teen girl squad toon. Many quotable quotes for sure.

Now, back into the shadows I go.

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