Tuesday, November 28

I want

for my laundry to be folded and put away. For my bathroom to be cleaned. For our driveway to be shoveled. For an awkward phone call to be made. For my paper to be written. For my Christmas presents to be made. For my wisdom teeth to be gone. Ah, the to do list that I don't want to do. Some are avoidable, but only for awhile. Some are avoidable forever, but probably shouldn't be.

I want to be able to read books, take walks in the snow, sleep in, not worry. All the things I can give myself, but never seem to get around to.

Wednesday, November 15

I do the weirdest things when I'm stressed. Like, clean my room. For the longest time, half of my bed has been occupied by clean laundry, shopping bags, my mini disc player, etc, and the other half is my sleeping area. I finally cleaned it all up today because I was stressed. About stuff.

And now it's 1:30 and I'm still awake. I have this crazy habit of sleeping in the middle of the day because I can. It's actually kind of good, but bad, given that I can't sleep at night. I'm also coughing a lot at night. I say "I'm not healthy" a lot. I do a lot of things a lot. Like listen to Rosie Thomas, which my roommates are probably sick of by now. Like not homework, and not much of anything productive. This has been my most random post to date. Just try and find one more random.

Friday, November 10

and then it stops

It's been a crazy semester. I think it's been the fastest yet. Midterms are barely over, and it's time to start freaking out about finals. Story of my life. Someone's always freaking out about something, with or without reason.

I want to go home for some reason. It feels like Christmas, and that I should be home for it. But you know, there's always that thing where when you're grown up, Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas. I don't know what to do to change it, but I want it back. I want this year to be different. It probably won't be, but I still want it. I'm listening to Christmas music right now. It's good, if not a little strange.

I had a job interview this morning, and I haven't seen a person since. It's kind of weird, to have a day off and just stay in one spot and work and not see anyone else. I don't want the job, by the way, even though I know I got it. I'm such a bum sometimes.

Monday, November 6

something new and exciting

For Annie. Something new and exciting for you.