Friday, September 30

If you've ever professed your love for me, or wished to on an anonymous basis, you may order and send me this. Sincerely, your biggest fan.

Now that Jen hasn't money, Jen wants things.

Wednesday, September 28

I started reading Princess Bride again today. On the bus on the way to school. It makes me happy.


"I love you," Buttercup said. "I know this must come as something of a surprise, since all I've ever done is scorn you and degrade you and taunt you, but I have loved you for several hours now, and every second, more. I thought an hour ago that I loved you more than any woman has ever loved a man, but a half hour after that I knew that what I felt before was nothing compared to what I felt then. But ten minutes after that, I understood that my previous love was a puddle compared to the high seas before a storm. Your eyes are like that, did you know? Well they are. How many minutes ago was I? Twenty? Had I brougnt my feelings up to then? It doesn't matter," Buttercup still could not look at him. The sun was rising behind her now; she could feel the heat on her back, and it gave her courage. "I love you so much more now than twenty minutes ago that there cannot be comparison. I love you so much more now than when you opened your hovel door, there cannot be comparison. There is no room in my body for anything but you. My arms love you, my ears adore you, my knees shake with blind affection. My mind begs you to ask it something so it can obey. Do you want me to follow you for the rest of your days? I will do that. Do you want me to crawl? I will crawl. I will be quiet for you or sing for you, or if you are hungry, let me bring you food, ... Dearest Westley, -I've never called you that before, have I?- Westley, Westley, Westley... whisper that I have a chance to win your love." and with that, she dared the bravest thing she'd ever done: she looked right into his eyes.

Today is TV day!!!

Yes that's right, the Rossmore is getting a TV. We don't have a DVD player, or any type of cable TV, but it's exciting because there'll be another thing to stare at besides each other!! Even if it is only a blank box. And, tomorrow starts the weekend of being home! Yay! And, I'm going home the next weekend! Yay! Does this mean I don't have a lot of homework? Heck no. For some reason I've been able to keep up. Which means that my evenings are composed of sitting in front of the computer, not doing homework, until I have little choice but to do homework, because something is freakin due every single day. Ah, second year. Who knew it'd be such fun?

Saturday, September 24

Some good reading from a summary assignment I'm supposed to be doing right now.

You are anxious about whether you will rise from the dead or not, but you rose from the dead when you were born and you didn't notice it. . . .so what will happen to your consciousness? Your consciousness, yours, not anyone else's.


Well, what are you? There's the point. Let's try to find out. What is it about you that you have always known as yourself? What are you conscious of in yourself? However far back you go in your memory it is always in some external, active manifestation of yourself that you come across your identity. . . . in the work of your hands, in your family, in other people.

And now listen carefully. You in others. . .this is your soul. This is what you are. This is what your consciousness has breathed and lived on and enjoyed throughout your life --- your soul, your immortality, your life in others.

And what now? You have always been in others and you will remain in others. And what does it matter to you if later this is called your memory? This will be you --- the you that enters the future and becomes a part of it.

Wednesday, September 21

ah, the burden of knowledge

Remember being happy before being told that what you're supposed to do in life is succeed? Succeed as in the world's definition. Be rich, be a people person, strive to be better than others, have the biggest car and live in the best part of town. But what if I don't wanna?? Sorry, I seem to have the commerce blues, where it is shoved in our faces time and time again that we must get involved, so therefore it will give us experience and look good on our resumes. Can it pleeeeease all stop now? Maybe more on this later. But for now, Marcia has trouble beating off the boys due to the loss of her baseball bat.

Friday, September 16

What good are those guns?

So...just got back from cheaps with Annie, and allll I can really say is: Christian Bale.... *waitforit* ...'sarms! Seriously, even if the movie wasn't really good, it'd be great if only on the merits of those arms. Sooo, I start training at my brand spanking new job tomorrow. So, we'll see how that goes...if all goes well, I should have an excellent excellent future as a telemarketer...kidding.

Monday, September 12

Ah, yes, school time again. And once again, I'm getting the 'can i do this' freak outs. I got a job today though. The call centre. Exactly what I wanted. I wanted it really bad. But, I think it's one of those things where they'll take anyone who isn't outright offensive. Sometimes, sitting through all the things that commerce students do, what I can really achieve if I didn't hold myself back so much. So, back to the job. I think it'll be good. Hours won't be so good, but I figure I can handle it. I think. I've lots of confidence, can't you tell? Well, it's either this or the new Starbucks across the street, which would really kick ass.

So, Marce's car got stolen eh. Crap. Big time. She's handling it super well though. I totally wouldn't be. Not that I didn't and am still had a little freak out session of my own. Right, that's why I'm in my communications class, to work on grammar...

Tuesday, September 6

Flarke!

Oh sitting the cafe again. Today was...good. I stepped on campus today and the first person I saw I recognized...so I think that's a good sign. I was walking towards university centre, and there's this huge throng of people everywhere cuz it's orientation, and I just breathed the air...and it felt soo good. I don't know...I just loved walking there...seeing people...walking along the same paths. I almost felt like I was going to go home to Pasadena but thank goodness that wasn't the case. Sold back some books for some money. That was good. I really don't figure I have a lot to say. I wish i had witty sentances in my head regarding...flarke the squirrel and annie's sim houses, but i don't. I'm tired and it's buddy day tomorrow. See you when I have internet at home...

Saturday, September 3

Whew. That's better, I needed to get out of The Rossmore, and fast. I've been spending waaay too much wasted time there lately. Just sitting, playing Dr. Mario and listening to music. So, I'm sitting here in Osborne Cyber Cafe wondering how all of this had gone so wrong. I hope that Annie isn't at our place yet, it's kind of a neglected mess. Given my neglectful messiness, of course. But I think I'll have a bit more time on my hands than I had originally thought so, I have time for chores. Anyway, I've been doing other stuff on the internet so my time's almost up. We have a phone number, just so you know. I've gotta get back to the Rossmore before my mom does. Anyway...I'll hopefully see a familiar face soon.