Thursday, December 7

My source of Christmas joy so far this year has come from coffee cups. You know, the bright red, or ones with christmassy scenes on them. They make me want coffee, and make me feel like it's christmas. It's a little strange, but I told myself I was going to try this year. I have to get with the gift making/buying pretty soon. I was in the mall today. Christmas is weird. So much buying, socializing, craziness. Why couldn't we do this when the weather was nice? Speaking of that, who lives here?? why? it's disgustingly cold, practically uninhabitable. Yet, we grin and bear it while the snot freezes to our faces and dries out our fragile skin (probably causing premature wrinkles), and tell anyone who dares challenge us that it's canadian pride. I suppose we all have coping mechanisms. I have moisturizer.

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Saturday, December 2

What have I done?

I was just reading some of my old posts, I do that sometimes, to see how my writing style has changed, or to remember things I've been through, and I came across a comment made, well, I don't know when it was made. I often don't check back to see if any comments were made, and I don't know how I feel about finding this one. Reading that made me feel awful. Like the person I've become has betrayed the person I was. But, was I ever really that person? I mean, it's nice to hear things like that, but when you know that that's not you, it just comes into sharp perspective who you haven't been. Who I haven't become. On one hand, I'm sad I haven't become a nicer, friendlier, more straight-laced person, but I'm extremely proud of the opinions I've formed from the experiences I've had, the risks I've taken, and the friends I have been able to make, despite myself.

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Friday, December 1

Regarding the last post, I decided to take care of my laundry right away, leave my bathroom uncleaned for another week at least, wait until it got warmer before I would attempt a driveway shoveling (and it was taken care of anyway), decided not to make the phone call and to just ignore said person, I will be procrastinating the paper for a little while longer, eventually planning my gifts, postponed my surgery appointment, and there. :) I've even read a book.

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