Wednesday, January 11

something worth knowing

Lately I've been, doing some thinking,
I guess that it's small like the last couple years,
I never would guess, all that it's taught me,
And I can't believe that it's brought me here,
I'm happy that you, know where you're going,
I wish I could say of myself that was true,
We both pursue, something worth knowing,
But I may not end with the same thing as you,

Wasn't there something you wanted to say?
About all the things that could get in our way,
If I am a martyr, will you be my flame, if it's all the same?

I'm counting the days, and counting the dollars,
Wondering how much I'm willing to spend,
To make us believe, that this is important,
There's only so long that I can pretend,

Wasn't there something that you wanted to say?
About all the things that could get in our way,
If I am a martyr will you be my flame, if it's all the same?
If it's all the same,

You could write me a letter,
You're not the only one,
You're not the only one,
If feels the way that you do, cause I feel it too

Tuesday, January 10

I'm trying to decide whether or not I'm done with blogging. I know, I know, people say this all the time. I haven't ever though, and I wouldn't outright quit per say. I'd move.

No coffee and no sleep make Jen something something.

Sunday, January 1

Going back to the city tomorrow. Doooon't really wanna. Well the city is fine in and of itself, it's just the school that must come along with it. I don't want to go back. I would love nothing more than to sit on my bedroom floor and just cry until my mom tells me I don't have to go. She'd love it. In the end though, I'll go. I don't mind so much really, it's the only thing that gives me purpose. There's nothing that gives my life meaning more than neglecting messes and putting off homework.

We witnessed a friend get married today. It's actually kind of surreal. But I need to deal with it. Only a minimum of, say...3 more weddings, and then it's June already.

Well, it's 2006. Does that mean I have to be introspective and stuff? Resolutions and all that? I hope not. This year, I just resolve to be a better person than before, and be smarter than before. And kind, I should be more kind. That might've happened anyway with or without saying it. But it just feels good to say it. Happy New Year.